I would love this

Alright, I am allergic to metal. Sometimes I can wear bracelets, and I found one that I LOVE!! It is Tiffany's Love Locket bracelet, and I love how simple it is. I also love the symbolism of it.



Maybe one day. I should mention the price of this very lovely bracelet, is $725

Valentines

Well tomorrow is Valentines, and I left it up to Kraig what we are going to do tomorrow. So I am hoping that we do something fun. Normally we really don't do much but since Valentines is on a Saturday this year I wanted to do something. I am starting to get spring fever, and just really want to go out and do the fun things.

Usually for Valentines I try to find gifts for Kraig that show that I really do love him, and I am not just buying him something. This year, I got him 13" x 19" photo paper. I wanted to print on of his pictures that big, but I decided he was going to have to decide which picture he wanted. So he is just getting the paper. I am hoping that since I got him a whole package of photo paper, that he will want to take more pictures. After talking to him a little tonight, I don't think he is going to want to take pictures like the ones I want.
He decided he wants to stick to landscapes, because he feels that he is bad with people. I want more pictures of us, like the picture of the couple holding hands. I love that picture it is so simple, and yet so awesome. I also love the fact that they are in black and white.



However on a side note, I decided to try my hand at making my own necklaces. I am allergic to most metals, so I figured that I would try and make my own beaded necklaces to see how that goes. I just feel bad for Kraig, because when I get flustered he usually has to help me. So we will see how this goes.

My week

I had a rough week. This week one of the companies I work for laid off about 30 people. This I took very hard, some of the people were my friends. Plus it scared me. Why did they get laid off and I didn't?
I tried to explain to Kraig my fears about it, but he didn't understand, for some reason it went over his head, and he tried to make jokes about it. I know him making jokes it just his way of trying to make things a little better, the only problem is I usually don't feel like joking about stuff like that. So I feel like his making jokes, is only making things worse. Sometimes it almost comes of like he doesn't really want to listen to my issues. I know that is not how he means it, but that is just how it feels to me.
I am really hoping that things get better soon.
I do have to say that I am very grateful to my wonderful friend Caren who after having her own long week decided that we needed to have a girls night out. It was really fun, and nice because I was able to take my mind off things for a while.

Too much, but too little information

Alright, I have made it a goal this year to eat healthier. I had read a nutrition book (for dummies), about 6 or so months ago, it helped but I wanted more detailed information. I have also been wondering about herbs, and what would be good for my migraines. So I got on the Internet to see what I could find.
I ended up finding so much information, that it felt like an over load. So one day when I was out and about, I stopped at Barnes at Noble, thinking maybe I could find a book that would have what I was looking for. Well, as it turned out I walked out of Barnes and Noble empty handed. They have all sorts of books on the subject, but none of the books go into what I am looking for. So we left, I didn't even go into my favorite sections, because I knew I would find a book there, but it wasn't what I wanted.
So now I still don't have the information that I was looking for. Sometimes I wish that all these people that wrote all these complex books about diet and health, would talk about all the basic stuff in detail, and not just skim over the top of it. So if any one as any suggestions, I am all ears.

Just a thought

Alright I made it a goal to read the Book of Mormon, I haven't been doing a very good job. I have read a little, but just enough to say I have read. Well over the weekend, I got on to www.facebook.com, and Kellie Oaks had sent me a invitation to take the Hinckley Challenge--read the Book of Mormon in 97 days.
I realized, that chances are I will not be able to finish it in 97 day, but I am going to at least try. I figure that if I can at least read everyday for the next 97 days, then I am less likley to quit reading it.

So I challenge anyone who isn't already trying to do this.

I am a slacker

Alright, I am once again having one of those months were I think of a ton of stuff to blog about but never do. So I have once again gone almost a whole month with out blogging.
I have spent the last few days sick. I am still feeling it, and I don't know how long it is going to stick around. The good news for everyone else, I am pretty sure that it isn't contagious. I think the problem is very simple.
I get depressed very easy, I try to do simple things to keep it at bay. Unfortunatly it doesn't always work. Sometimes, it gets so bad I get sick. Which is where I am now.
Since it is the beginning of the year I tend to look at things through a mircoscope trying to figure out what I need to do to better myself. I tend to be critical of myself, very critical. I am my worst critic.
It is hard for me to talk to Kraig about some of my issues, because a lot of the time, I don't even know what is bothering me.
I have learned that things that make me laugh help alot, as well as being outside in the sun. Unfortunately being out in the sun at the moment isn't really an option. I go to work as the sun comes up, and drive home as it goes down missing all the sunlight. I do take Vitamin D to try and counter act the lack of sunlight I get, since I fry when I am in the sun longer the 2 minutes anyway.
So now to try and make things a little better, I am trying to look for all the beautiful things in my life. I am trying to look at the brightside, and I am very grateful for what we have.
Am I the only one that gets into these funks this bad? I am never going to take medication for it, I am one of the odd ones out there that thing medication doesn't solve the problem.

P.S. The picture I got off of photobucket.

What I have learned from last year

I would have to say the biggest thing I have learned from last year, is something that I have heard from many of the teachers in my church for years. I learned that when everything goes smoothly, and there is nothing to test you; you don't grow. You are not stretched.
I feel that this year I have not learned anything, I have not been stretched. I have not been to the edge feeling like I am not going to make it through. I am not saying that is how you have to learn, that is just what I am use to.
Growing up, I always felt as if I were on the edge, and I would never make it through. I was in a living Hell. There were so many times that I thought that I would die. I did not think I would make it through high school. However I did with the gentle guidance of my Heavenly Father, he put people in my path that helped me. These people are the people that helped me to learn, and helped me through.
This is the reason I became who I am. I am grateful for what I have learned, and what I have been through.
I feel as if my year this year as been very easy for me. It has not been perfect, far from. However I do not feel that I have been stretched or tested.

Here is a poem that I love

My Life is But a Weaving

My life is but a weaving
Between my God and me
I let Him choose the colors
He worketh steadily.

Ofttimes He worketh sorrow
and I, within my heart,
Forget He sees the pattern
While I see only part.

The dark threads were as needful
In the Weaver's skillful hand,
As the threads of gold and silver
In the pattern He had planned.

Not till the loom is silent
And the shuttles cease to fly
Shall God unroll the canvas
And explain the reason why.
-Anonymous