Thinking...as usual

I just want to start by saying how grateful I am for such a wonderful husband. I have been having a rough few weeks, due to my pregnancy. My back and one of my ribs have been hurting so much that I just want to cry some days. He has been so patient with me, and trying as hard as he can to help. He is has been such a great help.
Also I am so grateful to those that came to both of my baby showers. It amazes me at the support that I have been shown. I love my friends and family, they are so wonderful!!
I promise I will eventually post pictures of the stuff I got. I don't currently have any pictures from the showers. I was so busy talking to everyone that I didn't bother with pictures.
I hope to have pictures up soon, but I make no promises.

Today Kraig and I got home from work and as we were shutting our front gate, Rusty (our Jack Russell) came running up the side walk. At some point today, our dogs managed to make a very large hole in their kennel. Unfortunately Rusty is a escape artist, he will bend chain link, squeeze through holes that nobody would think he could, and take any opportunity given to him. I have no idea how we are going to keep him in our yard now. Gabby our border collie is a complete opportunist, she will run when she is presented the chance. So right now Kraig and I are trying to figure out what to do. We can't keep chasing them around. (Did I happen to mention that the only reason we found Gabby tonight is because some little kids found her, and called?? Did I also mention she was almost a full block East of our house??) For those wondering, yes I was out looking, I just walked around the school across the street from our house (one of their favorite places to run to, Gabby loves little kids), and down one of the streets behind our house. I was about to give up since walking around that much was not comfortable when the little girl called to say they found Gabby. We may have to seriously consider getting rid of our dogs (I really don't want to, and I love having our dogs), I think we may need a dog that is much dumber then the two we currently have.

Also just some slight baby news. I love hearing the heartbeat!! The babies room is almost done, but the living room isn't, so as soon as both are done I will post pictures. I love the color the babies room turned out, I am hoping the living room turns out just as well.

Just a Thanks!!

I wanted to thank everyone that was able to make it to my baby shower yesterday, I am so grateful that you all came!!

It was so much fun, and I also wanted to thank AmyLynn and Dorothy for doing so much!

I didn't take very many pictures, oops!!

It was also super fun that we had four little babies there, they are all so cute, and all completely different. The oldest was 8 months, and the youngest was 4 weeks. They were all so cute, and fun!!

I did get some really really cute, and fun stuff for the baby, Thank you everyone!!

I will post pictures of stuff later...if I remember...I seem to be really forgetful lately.

Wishful thinking

Today was so nice outside. The hazy smog that has been hanging around the valley for the last month, has cleared (for now). It was sunny and warm. It makes me long for spring!! The picture above is really close to what it really looked like today, there is still alot of snow in the mountains though.
I would really like it if the weather would stay like this. Since we live in Utah, it's going to snow again, probably this week. Bummer.

Baby Registries

Alright, here's the deal. Today Kraig and I went and did our baby registries. We have one at Target, and one at Babies R Us. It seems like it took us forever walking around both stores. I think we got all the basics...I hope at least. I felt so lost doing the registry. This is something so completely new to us. I did register for a few things that I don't expect anyone to get us, I did it because at Babies R Us, anything left in our registry they will send us coupons for. Plus having an active registry with them, I will be able to exchange things with out a receipt!!
I am nervous, I worry that we won't have everything we need. I worry about the birth (this one scares me a little actually). I worry about the baby, constantly. I worry about everything really. So much can go wrong, and so much can happen.
So anyone that has a chance, please check out my registries and let me know if there is anything that I missed. I also know I didn't register for diapers, and wipes. I figured that there were cheaper ones that work just as well out there then the limited ones at either store. There are also a bunch of bottles & binkies that I registared for not knowing what I need, or what the baby will like. There are probably a few things that I registered for that aren't necessary, but seemed cute and fun (I couldn't help it!! I swear!!). I also swear there are things I registered for that didn't show up, or that there are things that I didn't register for (at Target) that are there, but I didn't get a print out at the store for either one, oops!! I think I figured why somthings didn't show up, I think it is because they don't carry it on line??? That's just my guess, since most of what didn't show up was binkie's and clothing.
Babies R Us
Target
(P.S. Sorry that at Babies R US, most do not have pictures, if you search for the item number most of the pictures will come up.)

Does anyone know what today is??

Today is the 65th anniversary of the liberation of Auschwitz. Not something to celebrate really, but something that needs to be remembered. There are too many people that want to say it never happened, but it did. Millions died. Many lost their entire family.
Hitler's political platform, sounded wonderful to the Germans. He was promising:
To make Germany great again
To solve unemployment by making more public service jobs
To stop hyperinflation
To protect his people (Germans) from the communists and other bad influences
To abolish the Treaty of Versailles
To let Germans back into the country
To increase German Lebensraum (Living room for the German People)
To get rid of large companies which were not owned by Germans
To sell more local produce so that all German prosper from the changes and so that they wont have to pay a lot of money for overpriced imported goods from markets
All of these are included in the book he wrote while in prison called Mein Kampf, which translates to My Struggles. It is mostly autobiographical, many believe he over exaggerated the truth.
There are so many books that tell of the struggles of some of the people that lived through the concentration camps. I suggest reading "Night" by Elie Wiesel. There is also a very awesome book called "Hubener Vs. Hitler" about a LDS teenager that formed a resistance against Hitler.

One thing down, several left to go

This weekend we bought the car seat. I didn't get the color I was hoping to get, this is the one we got.


To me this still seems very surreal. It is so strange to me to be pregnant, and to know that in a few short months my entire life is going to change, all because of a tiny person. I have also decided that Kraig is going to be afraid of the baby for a while, he swears that he may break her. He says this about all babies, and is usually too afraid to hold them.

Question

Alright in high school I had a slight issue with food, mainly I would see food and want to throw up. So I pretty much didn't eat most of high school (I was pretty much anorexic caused by severe stress). Even now I don't love food. Nothing ever sounds good. Nothing ever really looks good (with the exception of a few things).
Now I am almost 2/3 the way through my pregnancy, and I don't have any cravings. There are days when somethings sound better then others, but I don't actually crave anything. There are times that I want something super yummy, but I don't know what I want. So here I am still having issues eating, and I don't know how to solve my issue with food. There are probably a few who are wondering why I am the size I am, simply because of hormones.
How do people learn to love food? Am I always going to have this aversion to food? Yes I am eating, and I am eating enough, but I often feel like I am forcing myself to eat.